talking? no one seems to listen, they don't even atempt to pretend to know that i have even said anything.
lastnight dh heard about every 3rd word i said to him and tried to make a conversation about it and prove me worng about what i was saying... well ding dong, listen to everything and know before you respond...
today as is every day i tell the kids to do something and i feel like i get ignored. there is nothing that i can say to get my kids to do as their told. aside from screaming consonants and vowles that don't form actual words they act as if i have never even spoken a word.i am starting to see that my trying is worthless.
i say clean up pick up put away all sing songy like daniel tiger and they make a bigger mess. i say please stay out of the kitchen and within a minute they are climbing up the inside of the fridge to get something off the top shelf. io say lets not play on the stairs, someone could get hurt and for the followning several minutes they are up and down about a hundred times. timeouts, and spankings only work for dh.
ds only wants to play video games, dd only wants to play in the water. no one bothers to listen to mom, but when something is needed.... its demanded and if not gotten NOW theres a tantrum or a fight or more climbing to get it by themselvs. if mom says NO then its the end of the world, if mom says not now, its the end of the world, if mom says yeah, in a minute, the desired object is sough after by the kids.... and a tantrum follows when the object is not in the childs hand in 2 seconds....
cabin fever is driving me nuts, the kids openly tell me they hate me and don't want me around. (noy just today but every day) ds has taken to telling me that he does not care about me and wants me to just go away forever. dh says its my fault for how i raised them so i feel like a failure.
i am just venting here but its so frustrating and i don't know what to do anymore, i am hoping ds gets accepted into the montessori school program so i can have a break. maybe being away from me all day in school will help his attitude towards me. dd is a different story and i know things will be different for her when ds is no longer around all day taunting her, tattling on her, telling her to do bad things, blaming her and being mean to her.
hurry up summer, i need you. my kids need you. please warm up and be nice out so they can get out and play!