It helps reading what people went though. I have two boys (my youngest 13) so it's been awhile. I was pregnant with what would be my husband's first child, we thought he was sterile due to going thought leukemia and chemotherapy when he was young so we were so excited when we found out I was pregnant.... everyone was. My in --laws already started buying baby stuff for us. On the 5th of this month (March) I started lightly spotting and the cramping. I read online that is perfectly normal and I didn't want to act crazy or "over react" so I didn't call my doctor. The spotting continued and so did the cramping but it wasn't that bad so again, I didn't call but inside I was worried. I was afraid to call my doctor because again I didn't want to be that one that over reacts (what a dumb reason). The cramping started getting worse but the bleeding didnt. On the 8th I called the doctor and made an appointment for the 9th at 9:15am. I couldn't sleep that night, the pain was bad and the bleeding increased. In the morning the cramping was so bad. I got out of bed and put my jeans on.. all of a sudden my jeans were soaked. My water broke, I broke down... I already knew. My husband and I went to the doctor and it was comfirmed. It's a crazy feeling after you have seen your baby and heard the heart beat and then looking at a screen with nothing and hearing nothing. After I left the doctors is when I really started bleeding. By the time I got home I had soaked though my sweats onto my car seat. I went into the bathroom to get in the shower, blood was poring out of me like a faucet. I used the bathroom and a huge sack came out of me.... was that my baby in there? Is it in the toliet and I was going to flush him or her like a gold fish? That all I kept thinking. I bled in the shower for an hour to much where I could get out. My husband thankfully cleaned the bathroom floor for my cause the blood was everywhere. .... that when he broke down. We've been a mess. I can't stop crying. I have no one to talk to. That's why I'm putting my story on here. I need to get it out of me. I did everything right! I stopped eating the foods I love that could be dangerous. I stopped taking all medications except my prenatal vitamins. I ate as healthy as I could. What the hell happened? How do I talk to my kids about this? They were so excited. I don't know what to do or how to feel. No one besides (unless you have gone though it) will ever know what it feels like to feel your baby die inside you and have it slowly drain from your body. The image of that blank screen and all of that blood is burned into my head. I was 11 weeks exactly on the 9th that day I lost my baby. I had sighed up for a site that tells you how far you are and how your baby is progressing. After everything happened I got a message from them saying how they should be moving and stretching now.... I lost it again. I don't know what to do. I've never been very emotional and I don't like to talk about my feelings very often but this is to much to keep locked up.